Monday, February 12, 2007
dun think too much...
dun think too much...hmmm.... todae i went too potato's grandma's house to celebrate new year. u think it's early? haha. it's cos potato's exams r during da week of chinese new year. lol. tht's y they had their reunion dinner n lunch early, which is todae. hehe. met his cousins n saw how potato played wif his cousins. hahaha.
TICKLE HIM!!! poke his under arms!! EEeeeEee.. so meowly! =p hahhaa.
we left at ard 2.30 cos potato had to go for his time trial at sentosa. whic starts at 4pm. lol. he sent me home 1st.
hmmm... for the past few daes, i think i'm getting rather emotional... partially cos of the full month, n also, probably cos tht i have been seriously sorting thru my feelings n thoughts. n i seriously think tht i m getting into a serious relationship. but dis doesnt mean tht i m not serious in da beginning, it implies tht i m still
hesitating to take da step for a real bgr. but now, i've sort it thru... no matter wad might others sae or think. either me bullying potato or potato bullying me, i will take da step to for dis real bgr. my mom has alwaes thot tht i m nv serious in everything. now i'll prove her wrong... i'll show her tht, even if i'm not serious at doing work, i still b serious in my bgr. overcoming every obstacle tgt wif hu i love.
i-fi to-fold hi-fim tha-fat i-fi lo-fove hi-fim dee-feep-ly-fy fro-fom th-fe bo-fot-to-fom of-fof my-fy hea-feart.hopefullyhedoesntbreakmyheart...oridunbreakhisheartatall...
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 7:55 AM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Reflecting...
Who is that girl I see
staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone i dont know
some how i can not hidewho i am, though i've tried
when will my reflection show who i am inside
when will my reflection show who i am inside
[Reflection , Mulan the movie Theme Song chorus.]Reflecting... recently, i've been reflecting on myself on how i acted ever since i came to TP. i thought of many many stuff, like say, my squashieS, frenz, etc. i confided a few of my frenz on my character. n i found out tht, i've not change much since sec sch. other then being even more noisy. =p hmmm... i recalled many many things, such as my actions on a few occasion. i really regretted them, n still y did i acted out without thinking?? really angry with myself. how could i hav acted so rashly n irresponsibly.
furthermore, after wad i have done, i juz pat da dust off my butt n walk off unknowingly. crappie shit of me... though i noe tht it's no use bruding over old matters, but still i was thinking how can i change for the better.
i thought of many many ways. but it seems tht my stubbornness made me stay at 1 spot, not moving an inch or a millimetre. o my gosh! y cant i move? y dun i move? i guess i hav to build up a stronger mind set to move on if i wanna improve. it's not tht i dun wan to, it's juz tht... can somebody tell me how to change?
over the period of my "reflecting", i was thinking bout this song:"Reflection" the chorus i posted above. "when will my reflection show who i m inside", dis line has really really came to my mind umpteen times! den i thought of my Heavenly Father, i prayed to him, asking for help, asking him to show me signs of my trouble. after a while, i've realised it. He had answered to my prayer even b4 i pray. lol. amazing? well, it's amazing grace tht He had shone on us. i worship Him.
i shall not say the real name but as "yogurt"[actually wanna put as "milk", but nvm la...] or revealing yogurt's wherabouts.
yogurt went to OTC[orientation training camp] together wif many other ppl including me. yogurt was in the same empire as me. we knew each other b4 the camp. and we r considered quite close. 1 dae during da camp, yogurt met new frenz tgt wif some old frenz, n yogurt pang seh me. n the way yogurt behaved was extremely irritating n annoying to me. yogurt was bootlicking to mages they juz met cos tht mage has a big affiliation. lol. n i tot tht yogurt mix ard wif them cos of getting some benefits. yogurt acted very fake.
i told someone on my opinion bout yogurt, but they dun feel how i felt . so i nv brought up the matter again. after a period of time, someone very dear to me told me bout my character, i was stressing over tht topic for quite some time. so i prayed...
yup, God brought to me yogurt as an example on how i was. hehe. Praise the Lord.
all in all, i wanna change n i hav to change. not only for me, but for the ppl ard me n those hu care for me a lot. i wanna thank u very much for pointing out wad was to b changed, n thank God for helping n guiding me along the way.
THANKS ALL!!
valentine's dae is coming soon! expect some treats from me!!
*MuaKx!*
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 5:48 PM
Monday, February 05, 2007
Sleeping sweetly?
i dun feel any less,
for all nites tht i can rest;
chained at the ankle by workloads of lethargy,
as it crackles and get even heavy;
o my Lord, please hear me,
please let me through these calamity;
and also help my dearest friends,
in Jesus' name i pray, Amen.
knowing some of my frenz r facing some stress and going thru ordeals. hmmm... juz wanna let them noe tht:
here we r in TP, nth is not stressful. as u can c da ppl ard u, they r facing the same thing as u do too. all in all, time management is in prior. manage ur time n prior those tht u think is important. if u think tht there is more than 2 tasks to b completed, think of how much have u completed. even better, write out a do-to-list. it helps. i'm still in the process to keep up wif my own schedule. i'm way behind time. but still i manage to complete tasks and meet project submission dates. so do
manage ur time well alrite?
o yaaA!! i forgot!!! most importantly, frenz r all ard u. tht's y "i" is in between "friends". dun forget th u can confide ur friends for help. regardless whether they r close or not. they r always there for u. to me, i m really blessed tht lu kai is my bf, cos , despite all his projects n commitments to e2, he still draw a bit of time to spend time wif me. grateful for tht. hehehe.
dun jealous la~~! my DeaRieS!!! hehehe. u r still my friends' n frenZ r 4eveR!! =P love ya alL!!
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 3:21 PM
