Saturday, May 24, 2008
why....
why do i sense dis sense of un-neededness?why do i feel unwanted when i really wanna help?
why do i have the feeling of strange stares?
why am i treated differently as others?
why am i born a year older?
why do i have so many injuries?
why am i treated dis way all the time?
why cant she understand me? (i'm toking bout my mom)
why is she alwaes not hearing what i say?
why don't anyone hear my problems?
why won't anyone lend me their shoulder?
why is it hard to manage time?
why is it that my stamina not improving?
why do i have B.. thunder thighs?
why is my arm so BIG?
why cant i fly to sichuan n save the ppl?
why can't i get a good part time job?
why why why why why why................ WHY???
the troubles in my life continue to increase gradually... the more i think about it, the more "WHYs" i will have. Complications are there. Sophistications are also there... and even more, inferioritations. but u can also say vegetations are there.
hmmm... recently i got the feeling where everyone is looking at me wif those "u-r-a-hindrance" stares from ppl of my batch. i couldnt do a thing. if i were to explain myself, i will find myself trying to find excuses to run from those problems. but i will still do my best in every way i can.
blog again!! =)
song: where is the love? - Black Eye Peas
quote: everyone will go through regression in every stage of their life.
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 10:05 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Vesak dae's outing wif cassadra n her buddies!! =DD
Zindy and me!! 
UGLYY!!! 
ugly faces!! 
in the toilet again!! 
changed shoes, hu's shoe is hu's shoe?
Cass and her Baobei!! 
OoPs!! OoPs!!
hu took the picture.
lance in my room 
desmond playing in my room 
in paradiz centre toilet!!Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 10:48 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
i lost my way....
i'm not sure if it's PMS... but whenever i sit back n think carefully, i notice tht my life is filled with laughters. it's a good thing. but those laughters are laughters of the moment only. it cant b kept as memories, cos i dun rmb wad r those laughters for alr.it seems like i dun even noe my true self. all i can do is juz smile n let time fly past me at every second n moment. i'm glad tht everyone is living a happy life, those close n not close to me as welll...
currently, i'm facing a very difficult decision. a decision for this final yr in poly. squash or db. i've been wreaking over dis issue for quite some time. but solution or decision is still to no avail. =.= crap. i dunnoe wad i wan now, i dunnoe hu m i now.
as i look at everyone standing close by me, they r actually there physically. but, i cant feel the frenship love tht i usually feel. seems like i'm thinking too much when "big aunt" comes for a week's visit. x_x lol.
everything seems so meaningless suddenly. it's either me or is everyone revoluting again. or simply, changing. this is weird.
o well... blog again...
song: Let Me Take You There - Plain White Tee's
quote:
the reason to live is not told by others,
but for urself to find out.
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 11:38 PM
chocolate....
my mom gave me chocolate,even though she noes i hate chocolate.
n i still do hate chocolate.
but tml, tgt wif sme, i'll b watching chocolate.
hopefully they wont give me any chocolate.
i hate chocolate.
but all hail chocolate.
chocolates really suck!! >=P
blog again! =D
quote:
there is bound to have a bitter taste in every chocolate,
and so does our daily lives.
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 4:23 PM
Friday, May 16, 2008
another stressful week ahead!
yesterday, thur, i went out wif my dearest DARLING!! xinyi!! she's like my hot darling whom i noe from Mantiz FOC since yr1! although we hadnt seen each other for a yr or mayb juz hi n bye type! but we still enjoyed our date!! =D we went to the restaurant i work in! i intro her the beef noodles! it's definitely tasty man~~!! hooOOOooo~~!!! =Dbut! after dis week, the next week will b a brain taxing week! lol! i'm fine wif db training! cos i din expect myself to b very hyper for training! hahahah. the only thing is my MP/SIP project for the aerospace simulator. =.= it's gonna suck evry bit of brain juice from me!!
well well... went to watch gaylord, ah ye n alvin play friendly match wif guest. n i realise tht tp volleyball team is strong sia!! >.< lol! cool sehhh~~~! i was excited but the match at every point! n i would say tp volleyball is seriously STRONG! hahaha! jia you!!
tml i'll b rowing at bedok reservoir! =) GIRLS of TP DB TEAM!! plz wear blue for the rowing session!!! =D
blog again!!
quote: let the passion burn!
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 10:56 PM
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
FeeL GooOOooDD~~
pictures from TPDB girls team!!! =D totally awesome!! =)
yea man~~ after a dae of horrendous happenings, surely God wont let u b sad for the rest of ur lives. He gave me a dae of fun filled n happiness. =DDy m i happy? cos i felt a strong sense of team spirit man~~ woOoHoOo~!! YES ARRR!! TP DB girls team rock all the way arrRR~~!! hehehehe. anyway. i was hapy cos training was fun wif the girls. especially when ur wif Sixteen, Got Wings and Gorgeous!! well, i'm Eighteen. =DDD
we were cheering the girls on pushing each other to the limits. dis is wad i'm toking about man~~!! team work, team spirit, TEAM!!! tht's rite! no one can live without team work. =) THT'S THE WAY! UH-HUH UH-HUH! I LIKE IT~~! UH-HUH UH-HUH!
well girls of tp db! i hope u all will still maintain tht determination, team spirit and stamina to the very end. cos i noe! tht dis batch of girls will make a difference! =)
lai arrRR~!!! JIA YOU aaRrrRRR~~!!! =D let's have dinner tgt next time! ALL GIRLS OF TP DB TEAM! =)
now is time for random stuff! =D
well, about 3 daes ago, sundae, i went to a physician. only the seniors of db will noe tht i had a serious injury to my left leg and had a semi retirement. n sundae, i had recieved a cert saying tht i can do sports as per normal!! i was like woOOOOoohOOooooOO~~~!!! i told xiao pei n captain wing yan via sms! =D den went to queenstown shopping centre straight away to get new SHOES!! yea man~! from Asics!! woohoo~!! =DD yea... feel good~!
i told u i will blog about happy memories! =DD no grudge can be held for more than 10 minutes by me! especially after a good nite sleep! hehehehe.
blog again!!
quote: team spirit gives motivation. can u feel it?
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 11:10 PM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
O my GoOOoosssHHHHH!!!
it's like the title of this post. O my GoOOoosssHHHH!!! i'm totally astounded wif wad someone hu din train for 2yrs say to me... i shant name the person. but it's like totally unfair for wad he said. i was juz giving a feedback from the freshies.mass sent to the squashies:
feedback from freshies: din do proper warm up or stretching.
dis is wad the person replied me:
Mr. C: Fuck.
Me: Fuck ur head! anyway it's mr. k hu led the warm up. hahaha. fucking hell!
Mr. C: wadever.
another 1:
Mr. K:
you come so late u still dare to talk big at us?! who the shit do u think u r? u so pro, u come down to lead the warm up la. so wad if u'r the top female seat?!
Me:
Hey hey... i did not put my weight as a top seat alrite? it was the freshies hu feedback to me. I came down as a SENIOR. Since when did i say i'm a top seat from my very own mouth? since when did i look down on u? since i came back from recovery, all u did was shooting me. if ur not fucking happy wif my fucking lateness, i'm sorry. cos i got my own problems. anything else u not happy wif? Juz shoot. Jerk.
i was super omgosh when i recieve the msg from mr. k. n out of short temperedness... i juz replied wad i have to sae. lol. yea... short tempered. but... it was still unfair of wad he say. even if i din get the top seat, i will still train my best to aim for it. WAD DO U THINK MY 2 YEARS IN SQUASH OF TRAINING IS FOR???!!! if u despise me for coming late because of my mp/sip. i'm sorry, alrite?! i cant do anything bout it cos it's my project, my grades n my CHOICE!! if u have a fucking problem wif me fairing well in my grades juz fucking SACK me, alrite??!! lol. i cant believe someone hu juz joined squash 1 year would say smth like tht to me.
i faced many more challenges den u ppl in squash. i've injured myself umpteen times, n i still stood up to play squash no matter how serious is the injury. i faced players whom i defeated n now could defeat me ezily cos of injury. i fight back wif all my might. n u juz come down crushing my determination like that??? juz fuck off. if u ask me "hu do u think the shit u r?" den i'll ask u back: "hu the fuck do u think u r hu trained for a yr and to ask me in this way?!"
nvm... juz throwing emotions into a blog. sorrie for all sensored words and vulgarities being scolded and cursed in this post. i sincerely apologise to the readers. but thx for reading my blog. =)
i'll blog again wif optimistic n happy memories of the dae. =D chahl~!
quote: stand up at every fall, if u dun, tht's when u really failed.
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 11:12 PM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Quiz-zinG~
Labour Day's E2 Outing~!!
i lookk cool~ =D eh he~~!
NUMBER 1
The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.
1) having my dad to brew my chinese medicine for me. =)
2) mom calling me to drink my chinese medicine up. =P
3) having to see my eye candy =D
4) training up for db
5) tagging around blogs
6) thinking about now instead of tomorrow
7) saturday is coming soon! =D
8) my dearest sec sch frenz tagging me =D
9) everyday is soooOOO noisy in my lab
10) being able to run around TP and the tennis court. >.<
NUMBER 2
1. Spell your name as it sounds
JUNE
2. Are you available?
yeap.
3. What's your favorite number?
14
4. Favorite color(s)?
green, black and white.
5. Least favorite color?
don't think i have any.
6. What are you listening to?
The Way I Are - Timbaland feat. xXx
7. Are you happy with your life right now?
find it somewhat boring, cos i'm quite bad at keeping friends.
8. Favorite Subject?
MATHS and SCIENCE
9. Favorite smell?
My mother's baking!
10. How do you make money?
part-timing?
11. Are you outgoing?
so-so
12. Do you like Big Mac's?
=P nah~ i'd rather have McMuffins. eh he~~
13. Do you own big sunglasses?
YES!!
14. Where do you wish you were right now?
Venice or Japan =D
15. What should you be doing right now?
sleeping... zzZZZ
16. Do you have a crush on anyone right now?
yes
17. Half Empty or Half Full?
half full
18. Do you have any best friends?
OF COURSE!! 1 is a sheep, another is a princess, and a few buddies man~!! ;)
19. Do you hate anyone?
yes
20. Do you run very often?
yeap! to train up!!
THE CANS:
1. Can you blow a bubble?
yes
2. Can you touch your toes?
no
3. Can you whistle?
not really
4. Can you wiggle your ears?
yes
5. Can you roll your tongue?
yes
6. Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue?
err... no
THE DIDS:
1. Did you ever want to be a doctor?
yeap. =D
2. Did you ever receive an engagement ring?
no
3. Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?
it maybe every boy's dream, but i did wish i was 1. =D
THE DO'S:
1. Do you know how to swim?
not really gd
2. Do you like roller coasters?
Hell yea~!!
3. Do you own a bike?
=D yea~
THE DOES:
1. Does your car get good gas mileage?
don't own one
2. Does your family have family picnics?
nope
3. Does your home have a bookcase?
haha. i wish~
THE HAVES:
1. Have you ever been to Canada?
nope
2. Have you ever gone fishing?
yes
3. Have you ever seen a celebrity?
seen many...
4. Have you ever been on a motorcycle?
nope
THE HOWS:
1. How many cars have you own?
none
2. How many jobs have you had?
around 7?
3. How tall are you?
1.6 m
THE LASTS:
1. Last person you hung out with?
my mom
2. Last thing you said out loud?
i'm tired~~~!!
3. Last time you ate at McDonalds?
2 months ago?
4. Last thing you bought?
Lontong from DES Canteen.
THE WHATS:
1. What is the temperature outside?
30 degrees?
2. What time did you wake up?
7am. x_x
3. What is your favourite sports?
i'll list a few. Squashing, dragonboating, cycling,... etc, etc, etc. =D
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IS YOUR/ARE YOU
01. is your hair wet?
a little...
02. is your cell phone right by you?
nope
03. do you miss someone?
maybe~
04. are you wearing chapstick?
what's that man~
05. are you tired?
muscle sores and energy drained...
06. are you wearing pajamas?
nope
08. are you mad?
err... maybe nuts. =P
09. are you upset?
nope
10. are you studying?where?
yea!! Temasek Poly, Engineering School, Aerospace Electronics
HAVE YOU
01. recently done anything you regret?
uh huh-!
02. ever lied?
yes.
03. ever stuck gum under a desk?
hahaha. well, DUH~!!
04. have you ever kicked someone?
yes!! that short-21-holder squashiem CALVIN!!
05. ever tripped over your own feet?
ahahahaha. wad do u think. =P
06. ever did anything unglam?
yea... too many to say. hahaha.
TODAY HAVE YOU:
1. have you cursed?
yeap. too tired.
02. have you gotten mad at someone?
2 daes ago. my supervisor...
RANDOM
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
yes
Q: do you have any siblings?
2 brothers. Elder 21 n younger 17. i'[m in the middle. =.=
Q: do you want children?
yeap! i love kids.
Q: do you smile often?
all the time except when i'm having PMS.
Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
nope
Q: do you like your handwriting?
no. =( looks untidy
Q: are your toenails painted?
nope
Q: whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in ?
my parents. parents' smell.
Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
red
Q: what is your IQ score?
according to a test, it's 146.
Q: what were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
gym-ming
Q. I can’t wait till:
end of MP/SIP!!
WHAT WOULD YOU RATHER BE CALLED? -
1. Babe or baby: babe
2. Sweetie or cupcake: cupcake
3. Darling or Sunshine: sunshine
10: When did you last cry?
week zero?
12: Are you a friendly person?
not sure. can b quite dao n rude.
13: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine!
15: Do you have any pets?
used to have hamsters breeding around my corridor.
19: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
yeap
20: Do you think that special someone will repost this?
maybe. u never know. =)
blog till here~!! =D chahl!!
quote: a goal makes me do the impossible!
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 11:35 PM
Monday, May 05, 2008
Pictures Talk!
in dis blog, pictures shall do the talk. =)
cabbing to St James! 
newly made fenZ!
^_^v
altogether now~! 
frenZ 4ever? definitely~!
glamorous~~ *_*
PoserzZ~ hehe.
the 3 guys hu acc us! 
Shirlyn got a big head. hahah.
Erica n me!
trying to act cute nyaaAA~~~?? >.<
Raymond and me posing for adidas. hahaha.
almost everything on him is from adidas. lol
weird face by RAYMOND!
got the poser's look?
PICTURES do talk!! blog again!quote: a picture is worth a thousand words.
Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 11:48 PM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
what more will there be??
hooOO~~!! wad a tiring week!! though there is a holidae smack in the middle of the week, but i dun feel tht it's a holidae to me. lol. i juz wanna sleep....... zzzzzZZZZZ...on the nite before labour dae, i went to St James, which is so crowded tht i dun even feel like dancing. lol. hai~ heng it was ladies' nite, so entry was free n so r the drinks! ^_^v hehe. i went wif erica, shirlyn, raymond, benny, chia sheng and some of erica's fren like vanessa, police officer, nenepok, thuzar and 2 guys. lol. they r all nuts and farts when it comes to clubbing, N!!! i never tot tht erica is such a clubber!! ERICA! u'll b 1 of my clubbing kakis! =D including shirlyn. =D
went home at 6am in the morning, erica n i were confirm gonna get some scoldings from our parents. erica would b even worse. lol. hope she's not grounded or anything. lol. mayb she should have done smth like wad vanessa did. let the parents sign "indemnity form" for nite activities. lol.
labour dae isn't much, juz got really irritated n fustrated for the parent hu gave birth to me, not being able to understand my feeling n how tired i m after coming home at 6am in the morning. i noe i deserve it, but still, she could have .......................... hai~ nvm. dis could go on n on. lol.
fridae i stayed in the lab till 8pm wif derrick to complete the intergrating of hsu's n firdhaus' codes. i did most part of it n learned smth in the process. will record tht in the weekly report! =D
saturdae, i went to bt merah wif my dad. 1130 reach there, 1pm den i get to c the doc. 2.30pm had db oriemtation. but i couldnt join their training, until i present a cert to say tht i can run again! LOL! damn it. give me 1 week! n i'll b wif u guys on the following week's training!
o yea... the orientation was way better den previous yr's, they had games which had meaning behind them. n i realise tht i was really bad at "a e i o u" game. LOL! >.<>=P hmph! nearly got saboed to dance wif alvin(db captain). LOL! nvm. in the end did 5 push ups. =D lucky~
actually i wanted to buy crumpler bag, but i din in the end, cos i was soooo tired tht my eyes swell from the force of waking up. i ate bread as usual. den i went to sleep at 8pm. had fever. suddenly, melvin from squash called me at ard 10 pm? asked y din i go down to safra for the past few daes. welll i was sick anyway.
o well... life is boring as usual. nid smth spontaneous to pike me up. lol. blog again!!
quote: an early morning smile will make your day. =)
