Tuesday, October 14, 2008

it was never easy...

it was never easy to make a decision.... i'm always slow in making major decisions... dragging it n making even more worried of wad will happen after tht... many says tht i'm thinking too much... but it's juz part of me. i wanna take more cautions in my future ahead of me.

i'm 20... i gotta start thinking like 1... i had enuf of fun and slacking. [but still not enuf slp. =p] i wish i din make tht decision from before... i was impulsive and got a "3-min-hot-temp" to everything... after the temperature began to abate to a low temperature... i dun noe how m i gonna start up again. but 1 thing i m glad, is that squash was never a "3-min-hot-temp" thing for me. if i were to go uni, i will never gif up on squash. [wad's the point of saying it now??]

i'm sad n disappointed.... fustrated...... and lost most of my values of being JUNE...

wad just happened?? i couldnt take HIGHER MATHS!!! =.= yes! ppl may think tht i m nuts, but i cant live without maths!!! OMG!!!

thts y i din have the motivation to do anything... chen yoke yeng called me regarding my appeal, it wasnt successful... it took me after 4 hours to really think, what will happen in the future...... it's a real laid back reaction. i guess it's 1 of the reasons y i felt so.... rotten.. not spending my day fruitfully for once...

n things juz keep getting worse n worse... for once, i do not know what i want. uncertain of the steps ahead. other than e2, everything else change. =.= it took me 2 hours to think thru wad juz happened... n after tht i'll juz start to emo n go 1 corner to draw circles. (=.=)

i was thinking if i wanna keep my old plan of being an air stewardess 1st for 2 yrs and then go for uni... den i'll b friggin old. lol. but i have signed on for being an air engineering officer. and also asked my mom to keep a look out for her frenz hu works in the aerospace industry... =)

nth much interesting todae... juz keep farting ard in my lab. =p next thing, taufeeq comes in n smells his seat... whoot~!! a stench on his seat... hehhehe.

nvm... life goes on... n now... i'm facing complicated stuff tht i can only tok to my mom about... lol.

i wanna make change in my pace... lol. let's hope for the better. =]

blog again~!!! ^-^

quote: life sucks, but it still goes on...

Posted by m|Lk|e gReeN at 9:55 PM